Recounting every second of my life...
I'm in a Sundance movie.
In and out of frame I change the theme
like it meant nothing to me.
I'm a filter for a cigarette that's
already been put out.
I'll hold up my accomplishments, however few,
and feel so goddamn proud.

And you don't know me.
But I don't know me.

When my car breaks down,
and I know it will break down,
I'll ride my bike to your house.
We can act like nothing's wrong
and block the windows.
Turn off the lights.
Hide the blinds.
So we won't see our shadows.

I get embarrassed when people say
that they've been missing me.
I get freaked out just thinking about doing ordinary things.
Like, I'm high.
then I'm not.
I'm low,
then I'm not.
I just wanna find a middle ground where sometimes I don't feel distraught.

When my car breaks down,
and I know it will break down,
I'll ride my bike to your house.
We can act like nothing's wrong
and block the windows.
Turn off the lights.
Hide the blinds.
So we won't see our shadows.

I can hardly leave my room most days.
Most days I'm afraid of people, or plans, or friends I've made.
I would pay someone to rip my heart out.
Give it to someone who actually needs it.

And when my car breaks down,
and I know it will break down,
I'll ride my bike to your house.
We can act like nothing's wrong
and block the windows.
Turn off the lights.
Hide the blinds.
So we won't see our shadows.
We won't see our shadows.